What a morning. We got up, Jack started the morning off saying he MIGHT want to go to the Emergency Room. His knee has been hurting him so bad lately that he can barely walk on it at times. He severely burned his left hand at work with some kind of chemical. I've had to keep changing the dressing for him every 8 hours. It gets to burning so bad he can hardly stand it. Anyhoooo....I finally got him calmed down enough thismorning that I thought maybe getting him out for breakfast would make him feel a bit better. So he finally agree's after much moaning and groaning. As we're driving up to the resturant I happen to look over at this trailer in the parking lot of a car dealership. I thought "damn that looks like the back end of a race car....OH DAMN that's the back end of Dale Jr's race car. So I point and barely get it out. Jack spins the truck around to have a better look and I'll be damned if it wasn't. "OMG we need the camera." I say...so off we go back home to retreive the camera. We got back and took some pictures. He was smiling from ear to ear. "Baby take one of me and the car, baby take one of the inside, baby take one of the back....." I was so happy for him after all the recent shit he's been dealing with and going threw I started tearing up. We just got home and I've gotten the pics off the camera to share them. Oh, and I've sent some off to walgreens to pick up the 8x10's later. I hope everyone has a great weekend...here's the pic's:

Today is a Monday and a Friday for me and Jack. How so you ask? Because neither of us were lucky enough to get a 4day weekend from our employers like 90% of the rest of the population did. So here I am, working today, off tomorrow and then finishing out the week. It's going to be a very busy week too. 4th of July tuesday, Doctor appointment for me Wed. (please give me drugs!), Alisha's Birthday Thursday ($%$#*%!!!!!!!) and on top of it this is the first of the month which means busy busy busy!!!

Mentaly I've been ok, I have had some good days. I wish they were GREAT days, but I'll settle for good. This will be a stressful week for me, so keep me in your thoughts if you can.

Thank you all for being there for me. Have a great Holiday week and be safe!

Susan
~peace~

My evening went like this: (side note, for those who don't know, my husband Jack has degenerative disc disease and severe arthritis in his spine and because of this suffers from chronic back pain)

Jack walked threw the door, home from work as he does everyday. Only this day the look on his face was of pure pain. I knew right away that something was wrong. He was holding his backpack as if it was the heaviest thing in the world. I grabbed it from him and set it down "jeesus are you ok?" I asked. The pain was so bad he could hardly open his eyes to look at me or see where he was going. He was trying desperately to get to his chair. Once in his chair he explained that two of the younger guys at work called in and instead of the supervisor getting someone else in the area to do all the heavy lifting that two young men usually do, he had Jack do the job by himself. "WHAT??!"I was furious and came unglued. "ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? "They KNOW you have back problems, didn't you say anything, didn't you go to your boss?" He didn't want to get fired for being old and having health issues so he thought he'd just do it and suck it up. Now he's half lame and I honestly didn't know if he'd make it out of bed to go back today. We depend on his income as the major source of our survival so having him down is not an option. He HAS to work.

I brought him two percocet's, the heating pad and dinner in his chair. About an hour later he could move about but very slowly. He fell asleep shortly after finishing his meal. I kept shaking my head trying to understand this old man's thinking. I guess it must be pretty scary being nearly 60 in the work place these days. His normal job is that of a 'lead' person who keeps a packing area performing smoothly. He usually sits behind a desk or packs small parts. He's loosing his eye sight rapidly and the back issue is getting worse and worse each year. I'm not sure how much longer he can keep doing this, but we need his income so badly right now.

I heard him waking in the other room so I said my goodbye's to my online friends. When I got to him he was trying to get out of his chair. The combination of the medication and the pain made him look like someone I didn't know. I spent an hour giving him a rub down with menthol oil fed him a snack and sent him off to bed. He slept soundly and was up this morning getting himself ready for work. I must have fallen back to sleep because I never heard him leave and had to get out of bed to check and see if the truck was still here. I guess he was ok.....I hope.

So I'm off now to get my work done and worry sick about him all day. I hope everyone has a great day and it's full of joy and happiness!

Susan
~peace~

As I sleepily sip my tea and try to understand what the T.V. is saying to me I can smell the rain in the air. Yet another day of rain, spotty they say, but rain none the less. The only good coming of it is the cool air. I've scanned the message boards for something of interest. Not much there, a birthday wish and a video caught my attention. I've grown so very tired of the feuds and the childish behavior that I can't hardly bring myself to go back. I've checked all my mail and deleted most of it.

I had the pleasure of talking to an old friend yesterday. I hadn't seen her in 3 years. She used to visit atleast once a year. Talking about the past and catching up on things was extremely painful for me. It was all I could do not to burst out in tears. However, there was laughter in our chat. She was always good at making me laugh. I remembered how much I loved her, she was always so witty and bright. When she would visit we would have sleep overs like little girls again, laughing and giggling all night until Jack and Doug (her boyfriend) would tell us to get to bed. I hadn't realized how much I missed her.

I hope today brings all my friends peace. I love you all and know that I think of you daily.

Susan
~peace~

Im not sure what blogspot did with my pictures, but I will try and fix it if I can.

Well it's Monday again....and it's busy busy busy as always. I found out Friday that the owner of the apartments I manage is selling this one that I live in. This could be good and it could be bad. I'll just have to wait and see. I may have to look for another job which is fine, I need to get away from this. I just hate change, change scares me.

Well I guess I should go, there really isn't much else going on in my little world worth reporting about.

Be well friends and smile today. It'll make you and someone else feel good.
Susan
~peace~

I hope everyone is doing better then I am. I've been sick for a few days. Haven't really felt like doing much. My head feels like it's going to explode and my tummy and I are fueding.

I'm relaxing in front of the tv and watching 'brother where art thou'. I love this move. The music is great and always makes me want to get up and dance. I'm chair dancing and damn good at it too.

I want to thank everyone who has sent me emails and cards telling me how much they miss me and love me. You guys are the best! I promise as soon as I feel better I'll start posting more.

Well, the movie is getting good and I need to scoot. You all have a great weekend and please be good to each other.

Susan
~peace~

Well it's Monday again....Could be a busy day or a most boring day. Wont know till later.

I had a nice weekend. I've been getting hooked on watching movies that I haven't seen before. This weekend I watched The pink panther,The human stain and Patch Adams.

Up town they had a car show and street fair for Fathers day. If it hadn't been so hot we might have wandered around the car show, but the sun and humidity were bruital. They had a big fire on the down town square during the street fair. I over heard two people talking at the laundry mat on sunday morning that it was pretty bad.

Jack's daughter stopped by with flowers and a card for Jack. We sat around and talked for an hour or so. She's enjoying her new job and thinking of moving to a smaller town near by. I sent my father some e-cards and decided not to call him. I don't know why I avoid him so much. I think maybe I still hold on to a grude from some 16+ yrs ago. When I was getting married to my first husband, he was just newly married and his wife and I didn't get along. Words were exchanged which resulted in him not coming to my wedding. My brother had to walk me down the isle. I think I still hold a deep pain from that because I had always felt like family was family and you should always put blood first. I felt as though I was second place to the new wife when it came to my day. Anyhooo....I guess in some ways I still kinda get sore about that and find it hard to be a good daughter. I am sure he's sitting at home thinking I'm not that great because I didn't call....but the feeling I had on my wedding day without him there was much worse I assure you. I think it was then that I first learned that people you love and you thought loved you will hurt you for their own gain. Most of the men in my life have never really been what I thought they were, or treated me as I thought I deserved. I guess it could be why I have now recently begun to not trust men.

I wish all of you a wonderful week and I hope nothing but happiness greets you.

susan
~peace~